Really?

Someone said to me, that my life is surrounded by psychos and weirdos. People surrounding me would, but I wouldn't say that.....at least at first. Coz they're just like...uhhH.... new friends/acquaintances ---> new relationships are made; old friends contacting/ trying to relive the old memories of the old friendships ---> the bonds are sweeter. SMSes exchanged. Calls made. Stories told. Memories recreated.

Later I would think back...and hard. 'Maybe they're just being who they are, and differences among people are inevitable.' Accepting that fact (though it may sound too idealistic), made me feel some sort of relief. No tension, no stress, no fear.

For now.

But how long can an ordinary person stick with the positiveness? .......When suddenly, they were trying to pull me into deeper relationships, redefining and rebranding the bonds into something they presume it's gonna be something I'm gonna like....and decided ' Oh heck...why don't I just blurt it out, once and for all...and see what happens?'

Do they even think about it any deeper? Do they even consider the 'what if-es' coming afterwards? Would they chicken out after knowing that I'm not at all the person they thought I would? Would they be whining and weeping over me choosing someone else then? Are they even sincere and serious?? I absolutely have no clue at all, coz I barely knew them myself!

This is not a mere relationship that comes and goes whenever you feel fit. This is serious business. A life business indeed. Not knowing one person good enough for you to confess something as extraordinaire-y as ****......it scares me. By a lot, actually. How desperate can one be over finding the right person for this, the suitable person for that, and the perfect companion for a lifetime...never fails to amaze me. And more interestingly, I find someone who isn't at all desperate even if he/she is old enough to have great grandchildren and not at all have any reason do they not want to get married...they're very brave indeed. Withstanding all the temptations and luxury the world can ever offer you endlessly, recognizing that there's much more to life than what a companionship/marriage can offer...that demand great courage. And the bravest of us all, are those who can tolerate both, achieve great things and still, have a dozen o' kids and 3 buses of granchildren!

I know I still hold the power. Power to choose what my likes, hatreds, ignorables, favourites are. Things can just barge into life, either give something away, gain something else in return, fade away or stuck to the end. This will somehow be a mere memory, something I wouldn't want to reminisce, that's for sure (am I?). The doubts, hesitations over not knowing something for sure are really good actually, but when they start to bother you more frequently......annoying! They are, really. But they can also be great stories when boredom starts eating up everybody's souls, too. Gossipers...they hunt and crave for these kinda stories (the way I see it, any stories will be a hit if they get their hands on anything).


Let me be free.....at least for another 2 years.




P/S: Having said all the above, please do not make a big fuss/gossips/speculations over this thing. This is my blog, and I intended to make it a peaceful and calm (-ing) one. Do support me. Thank you.

birthday wish-es

Happy belated birthdays to:

Fizah~
Anyom~
Miqdad~

Happy birthday to

Amru



Happy becoming birthday to....






....me........




langsai hutang aku nak wish kat sume org kat blog neh....
ade sesape that i missed, do let me know. I'll compose a new one.... :D

DoN't TrUsT Me

Lame dah aku senyap, x tulis apape. maaf? aku x rase itu perlu, coz this blog is entirely mine. hehe

bukan sebab malas
bukan sebab kat temerloh internet x dapat
bukan juga sebab not much happening right now.
and 'course it's not becoz i'm busy....i'm far from busy, sebenarnye~


tapi sebab lembam-top aku nih yang merajuk sakan sebab dengki tengok sang hijau awe yang bergerak pada kadar ...uhh...2GHz?

siput dah went around the world in 80 days berulang kali, ko x abes2 hang...hang....dan hang lagi.


haih~









please, janganla merajuk, sayang~

Blissfully Blessed

Orang yang belum kahwin, akan disesakkan dengan

' bilakah anda mahu kahwin?'

They already did.

Orang yang sudah kahwin pula, akan diaju

'Bilakah mahu mendapat anak?'

We'll soon see three of you.....n more.

Orang yang sudah dapat zuriat, akan ditanya

'Bilakah mahu tambah lagi?'

Another...uhhH.....half a dozen to add, perhaps?

Orang yang sudah ramai anak, akan diusik

'Bila mahu mendapat menantu?'

Calon menantu, anyone?
hehe

orang yang sudah dapat menantu, akan dicuit dengan

'Bila mahu dapat cucu?'

Dah tua nanti ade orang yang khusyuk potongkan kuku kita.

....dan cicit.....
....dan piut.....
.....dan piat.....
....dan piot.....





....dan akhirnya akan dilempar dengan gumpalan tanah liat kerana banyak sangat bertanya.



Hope everybody are truly blessed and live a blissful life, come whatever.

Penantian suatu penyeksaan

Pehaps, you'll be as lucky =)

Other pics taken:

Once upon a time....dalam keluarga Pak Zamri.....

The followings are actual scenes happening in the movie of my life, as well as the subject's life. Yes, the subjects are my siblings. I tend to keep it as anonymous as possible as not to humiliate any of them. Enjoy them as much as I do.

BABAK 1:

Sebelum gi skolah, ummi mesti bagi kiss n ucapan salam kat si Tun (bukan nama sebenar). Pernah sekali tu, umi dah bagi, tp dia lak ralit tengok tv, so otak dia x register langsung the already-done morning routines. Punyelah meraung, menangis mengadu kat abah,

'umi x kiss Tun...umi x cekek (kecek = cakap, tp die slalu jumble up sume suku kate) salamualaikum kat Tun, umi dah gi skool...'

uwaaa n uwaaaa some more.....sampailah kat sekolah baru die berhenti. Time ummi ambil dia dari tadika, nampak je ummi terus menangis mengadu bende yang sama. Sampai je kat rumah, dia mengadu kat aku, kat adik perempuan aku........n juga kat bibik. Abah lagi skali. haih~

BABAK 2:

Gigi kapaknye baru je nak tumbuh. Besau lak tuh. Diapit oleh 2 batang gigi taring susu yang tak mau gugur. Gigi susu lain? Ade yang lenyap terus, ade yang patah sebab cube gigit tulang peha ayam, ade yang goyang sebab gi langgar bumper keta, ade yang dah berupa stalaktit dan stalagmit hangit.

Bahananya?
1)Nak bukak plastik makanan pakai gigi tak boleh, sebab geografinya yang tidak sekata.
2)Kalu die mewarna, selalu bukak mulut. Pastu, ade laa air terjun niagara turun....sebab takde 'pagar depan' yang sempurna dalam mulut, air nya turun mencurah2 tanpa ditahan. Time tidur pun sama.
3)Selalu kene gelak. Kalu orang suruh tunjuk gigi, die tunjuk gigi susu barisan bawah sbb yang tu cam elok sket. The rest, kene pakai jek kot kalu nak tengok. But, there's not much to see, really.
4)Orang lain mesti tanye, 'mane gigi?' Kalu aku yang dah waras dan baligh, mesti aku rase annoyed ngan soalan begitu. hahahaha~

BABAK 3:

Satu (salah satu) pantang Tun ialah ummi n abah aku sikit pun x leh bersentuhan, hata kain yang sedang dipakai. Kalau ummi n abah duk sebelah menyebelah, ade lah karang die berlari2 tetibe menyelit antara mereka. Kalau bersentuh jugak, die bagi warning dulu.

'ummi/abah, sentuh tu(sambil menunjuk ke arah yang bersentuhan)...tak boleh, Tun je boleh sentuh....'

Kalau x berganjak jugak, menangis lah...ape lagi. N she knows, her cry can make anything happen. When somebody ask why, dia tersipu2 n kate,

'Tak leh, laki n puan kalu rapat nanti die akan kiss kat mulut pastu die kawen...'

HOHHH??? [ni mesti tengok cite omputeh banyak sangat nih.......]

Kalau adik beradik lain sentuh ummi, walaupun perempuan, pun x boleh. Katenye itu ummi die je, bukan umi orang lain. Ya rabbi.....

BABAK 4:

Peristiwa toilet. This one is really hard to forget. Really. When we're little, it's not awkward for brothers and sisters of about the same age group taking baths together. And this is the scene afterwards:

Siti: Ummi, ummi.....kenape Siti (bukan nama sebenar) punya tak sama ngan Johan?
Ummi: Ape yang x same nye?
Siti: Kenape Siti punya (sambil menunjuk ke arah *toot*) tak panjang macam Johan (bukan nama sebenar)?

Umi aku pandang aku kat tepi....aku dah terguling-guling dah~~

BABAK 5:

Tun ketika umurnya 6 tahun.

Tun: Ummi,Ummi...ummi tua dah kan?
Ummi: Ya, ummi dah tua.
Tun: Kema...Kema! Kema pun dah tua kan?
Akmal (nama sebenar): Eh, muda lagi lah! Mane pulak tua nye...? [it was like a slap in my face,really....]
Tun: Kema dah tua dah laa. Tun yang muda lagi.
Akmal: Tun tau macam mane orang muda ke tua ke...?
Tun: Yelaa.....Kema dah ade bintik-bintik kat muka...tua lah tuh!

Adik aku yang sorang lagi dah gelak gile. Aku blah dengan hati yang bengkek. Cilakak~

BABAK 6:

Siti ketika umurnya 7 tahun. Baru mula sekolah katakan....Hari tu baru dapat balik kertas peperiksaan penulisan BM dia. It was about the family, rasenye.....or was it about father thingy... Here's a pinch of what so hilarious about the essay:

'Ayah saya pera burung. Tiap-tiap hari, burung itu berkiut-kiut. Saya main dengan burung itu bila kelik dari sekolah. Saya suka burung itu.'



We never had a bird. Before and ever.

BABAK 7:

Moyang aku, whom we call Mok, tinggal dengan kami sejak kami kecil lagi. Now, she is about 96 years old. Alhamdulillah, panjang umur dia. Biasalah, kalau kat rumah, orang tua hanya akan berkemban sahaja, selesa dan senang. Tun ni sangat observant indeed, but she draws her own definite conclusion from what she sees without consulting the adults. What happened next was she cannot stand disagreement.

Tun: Ummi, abah lelaki, kan?
Ummi: Ya, abah lelaki. Ummi lak?
Tun: Ummi Pempuan. Tun pempuan........(sume yang perempuan die listkan)
Ummi: Yes, bagus Tun ni, pandai anak ummi. Tapi, Mok pulok, pempuan ke lelaki?
Tun: Mok lelaki lah , ummi!
Ummi: Eh, kenapa pulak Mok lelaki?
Tun: Sebab Mok pakai kain je, macam abah......

Everytime somebody tried to correct her, she'll cry her magical cry out loud and forced the wise adults to finally submit to her ridiculous proposal.

BABAK 8:

We were watching 'The Biggest Loser' show on Hallmark. For those who may not know, it is a reality tv show where fat and obese people will compete in losing weights. During the weigh-in sessions at the end of every week, the females will have to stand on the scale wearing tights and sport bras whereby the males are without their shirts, wearing only three-quarter pants. The view are really...uhhH.....laughable (?)......overflowing fat and skin flaps, puffy faces, and gynaecomastia. Tengah-tengah duk gelak tu, ade dialog berlaku.

Tun: Abah, gotu abah kecik je kan?
Abah: (pandang ummi....apelah yang die nak cakap ni) Ape yang kecik nye tu...?
Tun: Tuuu~ [sambil tunjuk ke breast abah]

P/S: gotu = bende tu
Ummi aku dah tunduk duk tahan gelak. Siti dah tergolek-golek dah.....



And then......


Tun: Eh, perut dia macam perut ummi!

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Ade lagi scenes yang lain, tp x sesuai nak cerita kat public...you know what happens when a child grows up in an environment where everybody is adult, and with the very creative and explorative mind they have, the outcomes are hilarious. They're absolutely free to ask just about anything at all, without having to oblige to customs, ethics, gender. etc......Orang takkan kutuk budak-budak kecil yang bertanya tentang anatomi, kan? hehe

HoooOOOreyyYYYYyYy~~

Maaf, Saarah. It was intentional. hehe
Anyway, happy birthday to you.

Desperado

Entri kali ini ditujukan buat kaum-kaum yang mendorong spesis lain dapat idea mengarut. Tak pernah akan mahu letih dari menyusahkan, menyesakkan, dan menyengsarakan hati, kaki, tangan, seluruh jiwa dan roh sekalian alam. Tidak cukupkah dengan mencari dosa tebar jala fitnah menangkap yang lemah? Gembirakah dengan merudum jatuhkan orang lain seraya anda bangun tersenyum gah? Banggakah dengan jaya yang dicapai dan anda terima kalungan emas dan ucap tahniah? Anta hebat. Anti mengagumkan. Manusia paling hebat di dunia, bahkan?

Sudah cukup aku kunci mulut. Tanpa kata-kata balas. Tiada bicara hujah. Buat apa? Mereka tetap begitu. Perasan diri akan menang senantiasa. Apa faedahnya dibuat begitu, tidak pula difikir. Singkat. Apa yang dimahu, tidak pula disuarakan lantang dengan lagak berani mati. Hidung tinggi. Mendongak. Macam tadi. Diam tidak semestinya setuju. Itu dulu. Grow up,man! Sia-sia dan buang masa hidup aku sahaja bercakap. Patut nyah sahaja dari hidup aku. Tidak perlu aku buka mulut keluar kata nista kepada kamu lagi. Biar aku tenang. Biar orang lain tenang.

Seruan aku, cubalah hidup jangan menyusahkan orang lain. Aku berusaha ke arah itu my whole life, n i'll surely gonna keep striving. Sayangnya, kamu semua tidak begitu. Hampa. Letih sudah. Dikatakan akal yang satu tidak dapat melihat dunia lebih luas, tidak melihat seluruh alam, tidak pandang jauh ke depan. Hebat yang berkata itu. Sejauh ini dia melihat. Sedalam ini fikiran dia ada. Sebijak ini akalnya melata. Seluas ini hatinya menggapai. Pemimpin konon.

And people would say, ' A year older, a year wiser'.....To some, NO.